THOUGHTS, MUSES AND RANTS OF JAH

  WE WILL RESIST https://youtu.be/yxnmBHLqOyw I will never understand why red blooded Americans choose to get their news from only one foreign source rather than the myriad of American media outlets? They seem to have come to believe that an alleged bigoted tyrant from Australia (Rupert Murdoch) will tell them the truth rather than brainwashing them into believing what he wants them to believe, similar to Russia, China, Iran, N. Korea, et al. Would these same people listen only to Hitler had they lived in 1930s Germany? As an aside, I also read and listen to Canadian and British news sources, among others, for a more worldly view.  I’ve said this before, that those who should read this won’t, and that I post not for them, but for that one person who will relish in the fact that there is someone who thinks and believes as they do. The rest can scroll on by.  There is one thing missing from the following treatise. It does a wonderful job equating how American and European w...

As an adoptee, you may begin your life with abandonment issues, fight/ flight or freeze challenges, a lack of mirroring while growing up and the knowledge that "everybody leaves" which can affect your behaviors and feeling of self worth throughout your life.  💜 Can I Cry Now? By Pamela A. Karanova - Finding Purpose In The Pain, An Audible Memoir   Written in 2015.  ✍🏼   When I searched for my birth mother I was all alone, with no support or guidance. There was no help. Can I cry now? My adoptive mom told me my birth mother loved me “So Much. that’s why she gave me away ” but when I found her she didn’t want to know me. Can I cry now? Never in a million years would I expect the woman that loved me “SO MUCH” to reject me… Can I cry now? Click the link below to continue reading.  ⬇️   https://pamelakaranova.com/2015/10/10/can-i-cry-now/  #adoptee #adoption #adopted #adopteesconnect #naam #healingthroughwriting Can I Cry Now? When I searched for my birth...

AMERICA - THE REAL HISTORY https://youtu.be/1kgOuDZ-Ajg https://youtu.be/K2qeQlcC4ng https://youtu.be/GrW47CIbu38 https://youtu.be/J5MSrmD5lL8 https://youtu.be/jh8ar53IbmU No, Donald, there are not very fine people on both sides. Name one MAGA Republican who can hold a candle to Mr. John Wick. (Pun Intended) “He was abandoned by his father at 3 years old and grew up with 3 different stepfathers. He is dyslexic. His dream of becoming a hockey player was shattered by a serious accident. His daughter died at birth. His wife died in a car accident. His best friend, River Phoenix, died of an overdose. His sister has leukemia. And with everything that has happened, Keanu Reeves never misses an opportunity to help people in need. When he was filming the movie "The Lake House," he overheard the conversation of two costume assistants; one cried because he would lose his house if he did not pay $ 20,000 and on the same day Keanu deposited the necessary amount in the woman's bank ac...

  (1). I am not sure who wrote this, but I can relate. My adopted parents love to tell the story of going to a resort in the country when I was a toddler, like 2 or 3 years old. An elderly couple seated at our same table (communal dining) told my parents they were upset seeing a small child at their table and feared tantrums. They were so amazed how instead I was “well behaved,” didn’t “fuss” and was such a “good boy.” So impressed they were, they inquired about my initials. They owned a jewelry store and sent me a gold ring with my initials. “My adoptive parents always bragged about me being such a "good baby" - I didn't fuss, slept through the night, did as I was told, etc.  They also like to remind me, even at my 41 years of age, what a "difficult teenager," I was. Angry outburts, running away, drugs, etc.  But how often are the labels of "good" or "bad" mistakenly placed on adoptees who are responding to trauma by freezing, fawning, fight...

“No adopted person should hear from their first father upon reunion that their father never knew about them.    My heart goes out to those who hear these words and the “if I’d known, everything would be different”. Another adopted adult is experiencing the wrath of their adopted mother for reuniting with her first family.  Why? Fact is if you don’t want an adopted child don’t adopt because reunion is part of the package if the adopted person chooses to learn the truth of their first chapter.  Or you can always keep it a secret……  Why? Beacause the government makes it easy to do so.   But Lying to your adopted child about the truth of their first chapter and family isn’t love.  It’s selfish.” “For All The People in The Back, It’s Time to Acknowledge Adoptee Remembrance Day - October 30th 💛🕯️🎗️ “First things first, before any adoption takes place, every adopted person experiences a life-altering loss first. This loss is so profound that it can and doe...

It’s fun to be a kid again, fall off your bike and skin your knee, road rash. It’s another thing when you trip as an adult and get carpet burn. Now that’s another term we used when younger, but with a totally different meaning.   My problem this time was not age. It was the result of not looking where I was going due to mega salivation. You see, we have recliners and I pushed the button for mine to go back to upright so I could get up and get another slice of pizza and refill my wine glass with Chianti. Returning to my recliner, I did not notice that the footrest had not completely returned to the upright position, but was sticking out where I had reason to believe it wouldn’t be from past experience. WHAM!, my left foot caught it and down I went. Normally, you would use your hands involuntarily to break your fall. But what do I let go of to do that, the pizza or the wine? Sacrilege! Those of you who know me well will understand that I did neither. My instincts had me hold on to bo...

  ‘One sunny afternoon in Bermuda, it suddenly hit me what women do for us…everything that I was taking for granted - because that's the way we were brought up. My history of relationships with women is very poor - very macho, very stupid, but pretty typical of a certain type of man. which I was, I suppose - a very insecure, sensitive person acting out very aggressive and macho. Trying to cover up the feminine side, which I still have a tendency to do, but I'm learning. I'm learning that it's all right to be soft and allow that side of me out…’ J.Lennon “Thank you to the woman who wrote this: I’m 14 and I’m struggling in Algebra class. When I ask for help, the male teacher says ‘I’m not surprised, girls aren’t that good at Algebra.’ I’m 18 and go to my first fraternity parties with girlfriends. We don’t ever say it out loud but it’s understood that we need to stick together at these parties and not get separated, for our own safety. I’m 20 and I’m working as a hostess a...