THOUGHTS, MUSES AND RANTS OF JAH

You grew up immersed in your own culture, surrounded by brothers, sisters, and cousins. You have a firm grasp of who you are but remain unaware of my identity. I hold no judgments against you, yet you feel entitled to judge me. What do you truly know about me? I have endured significant losses: - I lost an entire culture. - I lost a whole language. - I lost my ancestry. - I lost my family. - I lost the person I was meant to become. - I lost the life I was supposed to live. All of these were taken from me by the devastating force of arrogance, colonization and religion. Therefore, I refuse to apologize for embracing every part of myself that they couldn't take, break, or claim. I am weary of the phrase, "We disagree politically, but that doesn't mean we can't be friends." If your political beliefs support the notion that children should go hungry, the poor should be homeless, the sick should be denied care, women should lack bodily autonomy, Americans should be res...

  I boycotted the Kennedy Center Honors for the first time since its inception. My favorite show on TV. As a protest, I watched INSIDE CECOT and then a special Hamilton playlist I created for that special night. I was going to watch bowl games, but decided on this path instead. Released from the hospital yesterday, so had plenty of “leisure” time to contemplate it and posted this: “If you are boycotting the Trump-Kennedy Center Honors tonight like I will be doing, missing them for the first time, here are some alternatives for you to watch: INSIDE CECOT https://www.youtube.com/live/2E4kZkaXPcY?si=o3uYBqcL9MLSyWOT Movies: Where to Invade Next American President A Few Good Men Princess Bride Any other Rob Reiner movie Hamilton If you choose Hamilton, here’s a good lead in: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgqqK8nu1JvbDhYPVnbxrXZnlFnOKzXma&si=7Fdd-OKitl3q_BFB” ~JAH

AN AMERICAN NIGHTMARE A bit older than you, Judy, but right there alongside you, also there for the ass@ssinations of MLK and RFK.   "I am 76 years old. I have lived through the Cuban Missile Crisis, the JFK ass@ssination, the Vietnam W@r, the Turmoil of 1968, Watergate, the Hostage Crisis, two oil crisis, disco, Reaganomics, 9/11. The covid pandemic... These past 11 months have been easily the most miserable era in America in my lifetime. The hatred, the bigotry, the lies, the racketeering and ped*philia are beyond anything I have ever seen. We are not going to hell as a nation. We are IN hell.” ~ Judy D Stewart Human trafficking is disgusting and vile at any stage, newborn, underage, or adult. Be it for sexual exploitation, sexual abuse, low cost labor which is slavery, delusions of parenting, fantasies of progeny, or a myriad of devilish, morbid and sadistic purposes, the perpetrators are degenerate equals.  I am reminded that as most celebrated the holidays meant for them,...

  Reputable breeders do not let new borns be taken away from their mothers and litter until they have bonded for health and emotional stability. That is considered reputable breeding. Why are newborn humans snatched from their mother’s womb and not allowed to bond with their mothers? Are humans not as valuable as pets? Is profit more important than the health and emotional stability of human infants? Do those purchasing these infants not care if they are healthy and/or emotionally stable? What have we become? “Infants and children are being taken, trafficked and KILLED. Yet, the public avoids acknowledging this crime and instead people keep arguing that "children need families." This is the power of PROPAGANDA. I speak to the injustices committed against defenseless children targeted by a predatory industry, the same industry that I am a victim in as well. I find myself living in a capitalist society that has chosen to put profit over its own people.  As a victim of a child s...

Reflections on Adoption and Identity Someone just liked this post from October 18th, 2018. As they say, what you put on the internet is there forever. So, I was just reminded of it by Facebook. A big deal was made of my once saying I was adopted, given away. And a while after that, saying I may, might have been stolen, kidnapped, trafficked, and I was attacked for “changing my mind.” HORRORS! But I did not change my mind. I related new information I had come across. I dared to keep an open mind.  Seeing this post again reminds me, what does it matter? Face it, I was too young to understand what took place, did not know enough to object, and merely related what I learned. Education is like that. You learn more, research more, and your opinion can and will change. I was honest with you about what I thought—keyword, education. Education and honesty can be foreign to some. Again, what does it matter what happened way back then? What matters are the emotions experienced thereafter, in m...

  Society likes to tell mothers that their babies are “gifts” to the hopeful adoptive parents so it paints a prettier picture than the truth of relinquishment.   I hear people call adoptees “gifts.” Human beings aren’t gifts to be given away. This infuriates me every time I hear it. I am not a possession, even though adoption tried to turn me into one. The “gift” I wanted was to grow up in my own family. I didn’t want to grow up with strangers. If adoption was supposed to be in my best interest, then why doesn’t anyone care what I wanted? Calling an adoptee a gift erases the loss that made that adoption possible. It ignores the separation. It ignores the grief. It ignores the lifelong impact of being removed from your own bloodline. No one calls forced separation a gift. But when adoption is wrapped in sentimentality, suddenly the trauma gets ignored as long as the outcome makes someone else happy. And this is what hurts the most, my loss was never considered as important as t...