AN AMERICAN NIGHTMARE

AN AMERICAN NIGHTMARE

A bit older than you, Judy, but right there alongside you, also there for the ass@ssinations of MLK and RFK. 

"I am 76 years old. I have lived through the Cuban Missile Crisis, the JFK ass@ssination, the Vietnam W@r, the Turmoil of 1968, Watergate, the Hostage Crisis, two oil crisis, disco, Reaganomics, 9/11. The covid pandemic... These past 11 months have been easily the most miserable era in America in my lifetime. The hatred, the bigotry, the lies, the racketeering and ped*philia are beyond anything I have ever seen. We are not going to hell as a nation. We are IN hell.”

~ Judy D Stewart

Human trafficking is disgusting and vile at any stage, newborn, underage, or adult. Be it for sexual exploitation, sexual abuse, low cost labor which is slavery, delusions of parenting, fantasies of progeny, or a myriad of devilish, morbid and sadistic purposes, the perpetrators are degenerate equals. 

I am reminded that as most celebrated the holidays meant for them, I was forced to celebrate the life and holidays meant for someone else. Moses Farrow says “…thank you to everyone who has shown up, followed me, and supported me as I’ve pursued and exposed the truth about what was done to me and millions of children around the world.

I am a victim of a global child supply market run by a multibillion dollar criminal industry. Despite there being millions of victims like me, the industry continues to be celebrated, promoted, and funded. Many of us don’t make it to adulthood. Perhaps I should be grateful that I’m one who did. 

However, this means I’ve seen the atrocities this industry has committed against millions of human lives, against first nations, against my people. This truth has compounded my pain exponentially. It’s forced me to decide whether to look away or face it and speak up. So I chose to raise my voice for the victims who can’t. 

Countless infants and children are being made into slaves, abused and tortured to death, disposed of, and discarded. This has been happening for far too long. For society to celebrate, promote and fund a mass murder machine is beyond reproach. The total devaluation of human life is the truest example of putting profit over people. 

As a victim of this industry, I’ve had spend a lifetime to uncover the truth. I’ve had to build the courage to say my life matters, to stand as living proof against a global multibillion dollar industry and all the people who have attempted to silence me. I am grateful for everyone who has shown up for me. Truly. Not just for myself, but for all the infants and children I speak up for. You are giving voice to the atrocities they experience. 

This is an especially difficult time of year for me, not because of the holidays that I barely acknowledge anymore, but because of the anniversaries of loved ones I’ve lost. I’m haunted by the guilt for not being there for them, for not being strong enough, loud enough for them. They too were victims of this child supply market.

Now, every time someone celebrates, promotes, or even uses the language of those who oppress us dishonors all the lives this industry has exploited and taken. When you look at a child, are you willing to brainwash them and make them a victim as well? Are you that kind of person to do such a thing? I was taken from my homeland and as a survivor I’ve had to witness countless more lives be destroyed. Is this really such a better life? 

What makes it better is when others have stood with me speaking truth to power. Thank you. After reading this, you may have a sense of how much you mean to me. We live in a time it’s important to have good people showing up more. Thank you for being one of them.”

For those who have found their true roots and faced rejection, I empathize with you. Most see your existence and hear your story from their perspective and how it affects their life, uproots their life, with no thought to or of you or yours. You are an inconvenience to them. They never consider any of the above that you found yourself thrown into by no choice of your own. You are and were a victim subjected to life long traumas. However, how dare you show up and interrupt theirs at this point in their lives, as if it is all under your control. It is as if they refuse to even contemplate the idea of human trafficking and what might have happened to others who disappeared. 

Coping with rejection in adoption is a complex and emotional experience. Here are some important points to consider:

Allow yourself to grieve. Understand that rejection is a form of loss. It's normal to feel sad, angry, or disappointed. Take time to process your emotions.

Seek support. Connect with loved ones, support groups, or therapists who are familiar with adoption and rejection issues. Sharing your feelings can be very healing.

Focus on what you can control. Rather than fixating on the rejection, concentrate on nurturing relationships with those who are open to connecting with you.

Practice self-care. Look after your physical and emotional health. Participate in activities that bring you happiness and relaxation.

Reframe rejection. Try not to take it personally. Rejection often reflects more about the other person’s circumstances or readiness than about your worth.

Celebrate your story. Recognize the bravery involved in searching for your biological family and the strength required to handle rejection.

Remember, every adoption journey is unique, and healing doesn't follow a strict timeline. Be patient and kind to yourself as you work through this process.